November 10th, 2013
  1. Maybe it’s because of the weather.
  2. Maybe it’s because the holidays are approaching.
  3. Maybe it’s because of life changes.
  4. Maybe it’s because of shifting hormones.
  5. Maybe it’s because of the commute.
  6. Maybe it’s because of the job.
  7. Maybe it’s because of politics.
  8. Maybe it’s because of other people’s children.
  9. Maybe it’s because of my children.
  10. Maybe it’s because of school.
  11. Maybe it’s because of the economy.
  12. Maybe it’s because of the struggles my friends are going through.
  13. Maybe it’s because of the struggles that I am going through.
  14. Maybe it’s because I’m getting older.
  15. Maybe it’s because October 27th came and went and I’m missing my brother.
  16. Maybe it’s because I see my brother in my nephew.
  17. Maybe it’s because I wonder how my nephew is, without his dad.
  18. Maybe it’s because I’m missing my family.
  19. Maybe it’s because my kids have been sick.
  20. Maybe it’s because I’m sick now.
  21. Maybe it’s because I didn’t offer work to any of the people waiting outside Home Depot, hoping for some work.
  22. Maybe it’s because I said I wouldn’t help the guy standing outside the grocery store who asked me for food.
  23. Maybe it’s because he walked away while I scrounged through my groceries for things I could give him.
  24. Maybe it’s because I didn’t follow him and give them to him because I was late to pick up my kids.
  25. Maybe it’s because I wonder why a healthy looking young adult is standing outside a store asking for food.
  26. Maybe it’s because I wonder about the young couple who are working the intersection near my office.
  27. Maybe it’s because I wonder why they have decent clothes and a different outfit every day.
  28. Maybe it’s because I feel guilty for being judgmental.
  29. Maybe it’s because there was a dead mouse in the toilet.
  30. Maybe it’s because there were mouse droppings in the house.
  31. Maybe it’s because I heard some scraping sounds near a heater vent.
  32. Maybe it’s because it’s dark when I go to work.
  33. Maybe it’s because it’s dark when I get home.
  34. Maybe it’s because I miss my mom.
  35. Maybe it’s because I miss my sisters.
  36. Maybe it’s because I miss our family get-togethers.
  37. Maybe it’s because so many of my nephews and nieces are already grown.
  38. Maybe it’s because some of my nephews and nieces have kids of their own whom I’ve never met.
  39. Maybe it’s because so many of my friends are retiring.
  40. Maybe it’s because my kids melt down frequently.
  41. Maybe it’s because of the struggles I see other parentsĀ  have with their kids.
  42. Maybe it’s because I’m weary.
  43. Maybe it’s because of the daily homework struggle.
  44. Maybe it’s because of the challenge of managing childhood defiance.
  45. Maybe it’s because I’m healing.
  46. Maybe it’s because of technology overload.
  47. Maybe it’s because of sensory overload.
  48. Maybe it’s because the house is never clean for longer than 3 minutes.
  49. Maybe it’s because the laundry never ends.
  50. Maybe it’s just because I’m me, living the normal life that I live, and pretty much everyone is going through something similar.

shades of blue

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