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…Mostly at bed time… 

1. Why?
2. Mommy, I not feel good.
3. I can’t.
4. I don’t want to go a bed.
5. I want chokkut.  (chocolate)
6. Mommy, I want joo-ooce.
7. Just a ‘lil tiny tiny bit.
8. Hey!  I got ideeeeee-uh.
9. Dammit*
10. Want to take a show? (pronounced like how)
11. Want to take a hot tub? (i.e., a bath)
12. I dinn’t.
13. No.
14. I done haffa go poddeee.  I’m good.
15. See?  I tole yewwwwww.
16. I jus’ kiddn’
17. I’m not <real name>.  I’m HARRY.
18. You’n teem ow (you’re in time out)
19. My special prize (surprise, as in gift or reward)
20. My sister gave it to me (does he mean his aunt, or does he know something I don’t know?)
21. I wanna peanut butter and jam sammich.  Jus’ reglar budder (regular butter, not peanut butter)
22. I’m not a jam-face.  YOU a jam face!
23. Oh crap**
24. Pooz me (excuse me)
25. Dat’s duh weeezun (that’s the reason)

What with all these twenty five things memes floating about, I thought I’d throw one in.  I sort of like the TFTTSMTT idea, but don’t want to think too much about things of that nature while I’m riding the high on my wave of mood stabilization.  I could quite likely compile a list based solely on commiserating items from others’ lists.  But I’m too lazy even for that.

*Not from me
**From me. Oops.

No.  Not that one.  (Although…)

This one. 

I’ve decided that mood stabilization does, indeed, work.  At least so far.  For me.  Sometimes I can feel the fringe of the battle raging within, but it’s only the fringe.  I know the battle is there, but I’m no longer on the front line under fire.  Instead, I’m tucked safely away in a watchtower.   Observing, but not being pummeled.

I like that.

Every night as my head hits the pillow, I try to think of the happiest moment of my day.  It’s such a good exercise, because it makes me think of all the moments of happiness, and weigh them against each other to decide which was the best.  So I fall asleep with happiness as the last thing on my mind.

Sometimes I’ll ask Mr. Gadget what his happiest moment was, but I think  he thinks it’s a trick question, so he tells me what he thinks I want to  hear, “Coming home after work, walking in the door, and seeing you and Harry.   Dear.”  I tell him it’s not a trick question, but he must not believe me, because he gives the same answer every time I ask.  (Of course, it is possible that that truly is the highlight of his day. I’m not complaining!)

Some of my happiest moments take place on mornings of days in which I stay home.  Early morning, in my office.  Eventually I hear soft steps making their way carefully down the stairs.  I hear the gentle tinkling sound of the safety gate opening and closing.  I hear little footsteps, padding towards the office.  And there he is, my sweet little man, groggy and rubbing the sleep from his eyes.  Looking for me.  It makes the heart swell.  I open my arms, he climbs into my lap, and we have our morning conversation, which always goes like this:  “Did you wake up?”  I ask. “Yyahh…” he replies in his sweet young voice.  “Did you have a nice sleep?”   “Yyahh…”   “Did you have some dreams?”  “Yyahh…”  (And then sometimes we talk about spiders and he tells me of the time that he woke up screaming, thinking there was a spider crawling on his face, but it was just the curtain.  Or a spider on the curtain.  Or a dream about a spider on the curtain.  Or all of these things.)

And he lets me snuggle him for a few moments.  Those are the moments I love best, because usually he has so many other things he’d rather do than let me hold him close and bury my nose in his hair.  I treasure those moments, fleeting as they are.

I loved the Splendid Cornelius, but it had an overall dark effect which I decided to remedy with a happier blue. First I decided to go back to a white ceiling. To brighten up the room. Harry wanted to help, so rather than ruin his clothes, I just stripped him down. He’s quite an Artiste.

I almost hated to paint over this. Splendid Cornelius sure photographs nicely, but the Wild Blue Yonder, it called to me. I studied so many color chips and this one made me feel so happy. I just love some of the color names they come up with.

I moved Blue Lady above the thunderbox. Warm Gingerbread is the color I chose to contrast the Wild Blue Yonder, but once up, I’m not so happy with it. It reminds me more of putty than gingerbread. I adore how the dark dark browns look against the blue, though.

I tried a little crunched paper effect to segue, but it’s a little too loving-hands-at-home for me. Too lazy to change it though, so it will stay for a while. Besides, I doubt Home Depot is open today, and I don’t think I have any yummy dark chocolate brown paint in the garage. I thought if I could manage a drizzled look with a dark chocolate over that putty beige, it would look lovely next to that blue. And remind me of cappuccinos drizzled with chocolate, which also makes me happy.

The nebulae have moved from behind the thinking chair to the left of the sink. I adore these miniatures. And a tall bookcase has taken Blue Lady’s former place. What better place for reading material, than the reading room that gets most used in this house?

Horizontal cabinet handles were added to the cabinet doors, and these are just right for towel holders.

I had much grander plans for my holiday makeover. I planned to redo my office and repaint the entire downstairs. It took all the energy I could muster to just finish one small bathroom. To my credit, however, I did go through my files and rid myself of three waste bins full of papers that I don’t need to save. I also decided to recycle most of my magazines, which frees up quite a lot of book shelf space. And while Mr. Gadget was sleeping by the fire watching Harry, I organized and alphabetized the DVD collection. He’s so helpful.

There are a few days left to my holiday, so I may actually get the office done. Although I don’t love that Warm Gingerbread paint, I do have a gallon of it, so perhaps will use it in the office. There is quite a lot of the Wild Blue Yonder left, and I was toying with a kitchen redo, but after seeing it in the bathroom, it’s not quite the color I was envisioning. Maybe I’ll add a little white to it. Or mix some of my exterior dark blue with it.

I’ve got at least a little fresh new look for a fresh new year, and that’s a nice start.